A bittersweet date.

Well, not really a date. Rather a shopping trip to get my remaining items, while he shops for his university stuff. Tried to keep a smile on my face, tried to remain happy, tried to be enthu, but inside my heart it was wrenching squeezing pumping so horrible so bitter so pain!

Haiz. Even when Marcus hits me or slaps me I don't retaliate anymore! I just wana pinch his chubby cheeks and hug his little body because when I return he will be a big boy already!

I know I know... I'm still in that emo state. Not that I want. But I'm trying to quit!

1st July. It's July already. Just 1 more week to go...